Suffer With Anxiety?

Today I wanted to talk about a very serious subject that affects hundreds of people every day. Imagine a sudden rush of feeling uneasy and fear going through you which is uncontrollable and you have no idea how to calm yourself down. Anxiety is a serious disorder and many people are too scared to seek out help. Everyone experiences anxiety in their lives if it appears before going in for a test or a job interview, it's a natural human emotion. However anxiety may be more severe for certain people and can seriously impact their life.

I created this blog to talk about my own personal experiences which hopefully may help a few people who have or are going through the same things I have been through. I feel like by talking about these subjects I have opened myself up for the world to see and many people wouldn't have known a lot of this about me. I do suffer quite badly with anxiety which I do not know if it came from having cancer at a young age or If I generally developed it over time. Many people do not know this about me as I genuinely hardly speak about it and when people meet me they wouldn't even think I suffered as majority of the time I think I am an upbeat person.

As I've grown up I feel that it effects me more as I go to more crowded areas and have a lot more adult responsibilities in my life. One example was at New years eve standing in a small room in a club which was so packed I couldn't move, literally. I wasn't near my friends as there was too many people in the way and I could feel an attack coming on. I got pulled out of the crowd into a more quiet area and had to go home as I couldn't get myself to calm down. As a young lady I do not want to experience this every time I go out with my friends as I want to be able to dance and have a laugh but this is uncontrollable and can happen at any point.  The only way I know to deal with this properly is to seek help from a therapist but I am not ready to sit down and discuss this with a professional yet.  

I understand this post hasn't been exactly cheerful but I really felt passionate talking about this subject as I feel that people need to understand what it is like to live with this. On a lighter note to finish I have started to find better ways to calm myself down and I am also lucky to have family and friends that know I suffer with this so they take time to look after me and support me which is amazing and I am very grateful for. I hope if you also suffer with this you can find the courage to talk to someone about your feelings and get support as it genuinely helps out a lot! Thank you for taking the time out to read this post xx